I recently had an interview for a job that would have been my first (real) one since finishing uni.
In my head the interview went really well, I thought I gave a good first impression not only to the editors but the managing director too and believed that I had all the credentials needed.
The only problem is… I did’t get the job, someone else who had more experience got the position.
Getting that email and seeing that your dreams are still being put on hold and being rejected from a job you really want is a hard thing to deal with. It’s not an easy thing to accept; that you have to wait even longer for your break into the industry when things come so much more easily to others.
Having to pick yourself back up and start all over again and still believe in yourself without losing confidence is a tough thing to do. I’m still trying to convince myself that the next interview I get is going to be my “big break” but I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that it’s not going to be as easy as I thought.
There are a lot of great journalists already in the industry and so many more that are trying to get their foot in the door just like me so even though I want it as bad as everyone else, it’s not going to be a quick and painless process.
As each interview comes along, I start believing in myself more and more but I’ve accepted that even if I get rejected, there is a company out there that is perfect for me and soon I’ll find it.